Final Post

We only have three more classes left! I am so excited for this semester to be finished. It seems like this semester, I have always had something that I should have been doing. But there is a lot more to life than school. I have a job, I babysit, and I hang out with friends. I am extremely busy and even though I spend a lot of time doing nothing, there is never a time when I SHOULD be doing nothing. This class especially has given me a ton of stuff to work on throughout the semester. The last couple of weeks, I have been working on a paper for this class every single day. I am putting so much time into the assignments lately because I have not been satisfied with the grades from my previous assignments. There are three more papers to turn in and I want them to be even better than my papers have been; but I have been trying hard all semester so I don't know if I can do any better. Basically, I have an insane amount of stuff going on in my life right now, and I always want to do extremely well in everything that I am involved in, so I am always stressed out and worrying about something. I need a break.

Good vs. Evil

I have been putting so much time and effort into this Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde paper. I have probably spent a total of twelve hours on it over the last four days. Basically, it is at the point where it is completely ridiculous. This paper should not take this much time to write. I already have the outside sources that I am going to use, and I have already went through the book and highlighted and bookmarked examples that I want to use in my paper. I actually believe in the topic that I am writing about (how Jekyll and Hyde is relevant today). But still, I am having no luck what-so-ever on writing the paper. I will seriously just stare at the screen and try to figure out what to write next, but nothing is coming out. There are a few different reasons that are contributing to this.

The main reason is that I am discouraged. I am discouraged because I have always done really well in English, especially writing, and I feel like anything that I do in this class is not good enough. I am not satisfied with the grades that I have been getting and I am extremely worried that I will not get the grade that I am aiming for. I am very worried about upholding the 4.0 that I have in college and I feel like this class is going to ruin that. I feel like nothing I do is good enough, so why try?